Circling the mall, out shopping
For a dream, instead of watching who was
Shopping for me, outside a department store window
A reflection did not present the outline of abuse and neglect that
I suffered at home, then the image blended with mine
He stood like my story was his to confide in
the nights When too drunk or just done with me
my father remained Unaware I had found
another man and one who promised
He wouldn’t hurt me like he would
I could tell him my dreams and I did
The little that I had left
His promises seemed real
So off I packed with no looking back
Except at my bedroom window which was shattered and cracked
I was afraid that night of getting out
but upon his arrival his smile seemed to be in harmony
With the future, he promised me
With no face value doubts I got in and left
Not knowing if It may be better than what no one should call home
Before sunrise I had a new image more grown up
He said it suited me better and for my Dreams
we never left for Paris or even out of the state nor was it even brought up
Deep in the city he drove me to a corner and told me to wait
Pulled out of the car in such a forceful hurry
I felt my innocence lost again and again
I screamed and yelled but no one listened,
they barely watched like it was ok what was going on
then I heard another man’s voice,
as my man of promises voice who brought me here withdrew
he said I was his girl now and the car door
echoed so hard It blew off every dream I knew when it closed
he drove away with all my hope
now my body became a slum over and
over again for many men to occupy
the other girls said never to try and run
he would find me and make it worse
unable to find a sight of my past dreams
walking along these vacant streets
I went circling around the mall in my mind
And convinced myself this was my calling and what I deserved
I circled around the mall a lot in my mind
Looking on while my dreams disappeared
in a department store window’s reflection
Then I resumed being a lady of the night